tHe mOst PAINFUL mOment oF mY LIfe

i rEaLy wAsn't mEant tO bE iNfOrmEd..

bUt bEcAUse oF aN aCcidEnt..

i kNew..

i fOund oUt..

aNd i wAs hURt..

yOu sEe..

i aDOre a Lot oF gUYz..

aND tHere aRe tHrEe oF tHem wHich i wOn't tELL tHeiR nAmes..

jUst tHeir iNitiALs..

"B" is a Long tiMe fRiEnd oF miNe.. aNd eVer siNce wE kNew eAch oTheR wELL, i aLrEady hAVe a cRush oN him..

tHen.. "F" cAMe aLong.."F" iS "B'''s yOungEr bRoTher.. hE's mUch mOre gOod LoOking aNd hE iS mUch mORe tHe tYPe oF gUy tHat eAsiLy aTtraCts mE.. tHe eMo-rOckEr tYpE.. i wAs tOLd bY "B" tHat hE sEcrEtLy LikEs mE tOo.. gOrsH!

aNd tHen tHere iS "P", "B"'s bEstfRiend.. hE iS sO niCe aNd fRiEndLy.. i jUst Like hiM cOz hE's cUte..

tHe sToRy iS tHat i sTopPed cRusHing oN "B" wHen i met hiS bRotHer "F".. aNd tHen.. i rEaLizEd tHat iT iS "B" tHat i rEaLY wAnt.. bUt i sTiLL Like hiS bRotHer..

aNd tHen wE cAme tO tHe pOint tHat "B" aNd i aRe sUpEr cLosE..

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~ wHen hE aSk mE tO hELp him wiTh sOmetHing, wE wEnt tO tHis mALL.. tHen i kNew fRom a fRiend oF oUrs tHat hE tHinks oF iT aS a dAte..

~ mY tWo bEstfRiends aSked him oF wHat hE tHinks oF mE.. hE answEred "mORe tHan a fRiend"..

~ hE aLwaYs aSk sOmetHing fRom mE..

LikE piCtUres.. i tHink hE aLrEady gOt 4 oF iT..

hAnKy.. hE wAnts iT aS biRthdAy giFt..

aNd tHen tHe LAst iNCIsEnt bEfOre tHe aCCidENt..

~ hE sAT cLosE tO mE iN fRont oF hiS fRiends aNd cLasSmaTes wHiLe wE wEre tALking...

bUt yEsteRday.."B"'s biRthdAy tO bE eXact..

i fOund oUt tHe pAinfuL nEws i tHink i cAn eVer fiNd oUt..

hE iS tAKen..

bY a sWeEt, kiNd aNd sMart giRL..[aCCordiNg tO mY sOurcEs..]

"B" dOesn't wAnt mE tO fiNd oUt cOz hE tHinks tHat i wOuLd tELL iT to his uNcLe..

i gUesSs tHat aLso mEans i dOn't hAve hiS tRust..

aFter aLL tHe tHings wE've been tHroUgh i tHought wE wEre sO cLose..

dAmn!

hOw cOuLd i bE sO sTupiD??

aLL tHe wAy i tHought hE wAs dOing aLL tHose sO tHat i cOuLd viBe tHat hE dOes fEeL sOmetHing fOr mE..

bUt i gUesS i Let mYsELf dReam tOo mUch..

i hAve nEver hAd mY hEart bRokEn LikE tHis bEfOre..

iT hUrts sO muCh..

iT rEaLy dOes..

i dOn't wAnt tO eLabOrate tHe sTory mOre eVen tHough iT iS vEry iNtEresting tO wRiTe.. [i gUesS..] cOz iT hUrts..

"Why did I let myself believe

Miracles could happen

Cause now I have to pretend

That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale

A dream when I'm not sleeping

A wish upon a star

That's coming true

But everybody else could tell

That I confused my feelings with the truth

When there was me and you

Now I know you're not a fairytale

And dreams were meant for sleeping

And wishes on a star

Just don't come true

Cause now even I can tell

That I confused my feelings with the truth

Because I liked the view

When there was me and you

I can't believe that I could be so blind

It's like you were floating

While I was falling

And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view

Thought you felt it too"